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[ichoosefight]

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[ichoosefight]

We only made it on special occasions. So now I'm older and we don't have to worry so much about buying milk, I have it all the time.

[tucky]

Where'd you get it? Did you ask the Admiral for it?

[ichoosefight]

Yeah. Little stuff like this he has no problem handing out.

[tucky]

I hate asking him for stuff. I still do it sometimes, but I fucking hate it.

[ichoosefight]

Yeah? Why's that?

[ She pokes at the milk on the stove and, satisfied it's hot enough, pours two mugs of hot cocoa. ]

[tucky]

Because he's a fucking monster and the worst person I ever met.

[Tell us how you really feel, Tiffany.]

[ichoosefight]

Fair.

[ Steph stirs her mug idly. ]

That's why I don't feel bad taking advantage of what nice things we get.

[tucky]

No. Me neither; he owes everybody. But... you know there's inmates that hate asking the wardens for favors? I know it ain't the same, and I ain't an inmate, but it feels kinda like that. I don't want him feeling like everything is okay just 'cause he gives me stuff sometimes.

[ichoosefight]

I get you. I guess I just never thought about what he thinks. I mean, we're kinda endorsing the system by staying here, aren't we?

[tucky]

I guess. Kind of. I don't think all of us are totally, but maybe we are in the ways that matter to people.

[ichoosefight]

I'm not the first person to have said so, let's put it that way.

[tucky]

No, you're not. I hear it a lot. I don't blame any of 'em for it.

I talk to a lot of inmates that don't like wardens much.

[ichoosefight]

You talk to a lot of people, period. I don't know a lot of inmates who would say they like wardens.

[tucky]

You mean wardens in general?

[ichoosefight]

Yeah. Funny how, once they have a face to put to the concept, they tend to be more forgiving.

[tucky]

Nah, not always. And sometimes having a face makes it even harder, I bet.

[ichoosefight]

I guess it depends on the person.

[tucky]

You got people like me, too, 'cause I loved all the wardens when I was an inmate.

[ichoosefight]

I was too absorbed in my own crap to think much about wardens and inmates.

[tucky]

It weren't a philosophical thing. As long as they were good to me, I didn't care about anything else.

[ichoosefight]

Yeah, I was kinda like that. But I think there are probably a lot of people like that. I mean, when you come here as an inmate you've just died. That's gotta be traumatic more often than not.

[tucky]

I still ain't buying that for everybody.

But it was, for me. Being told that. There's people that should've been way more sensitive about it than they were.

[ichoosefight]

Would you have believed them if they were?

[tucky]

Nope. Like I said, I don't believe them now. I believe some inmates are dead, but I don't believe it's a sure thing.

[ichoosefight]

Well, that's the difference. I never had any doubt that I was dead.