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[ichoosefight]

"I'm not here right now, but leave me a message and I'll call you right back!"

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[ichoosefight]

It represents behaving like a child. And I've been stuck here, I know what it's like.

[tucky]

Do you? 'Cause I don't think you do. I didn't when I was an inmate.

Call it nasty and cruel and awful, 'cause it's all those things, but it ain't childish.

[ichoosefight]

Oh, and now that you're a warden you have a perfect understanding? Just because other people might have it worse doesn't mean our experiences aren't valid and real. And just because a guy has a sad grown-up story doesn't mean his lashing out isn't still childish behavior.

[tucky]

I'm not talking about growing up and sad stories, I'm talking about now. I'm talking about getting trapped here and not knowing when you're gonna get to leave, and getting talked down to all the time, and having to deal with floods and breaches and shit. And don't say we have to deal with that shit too, 'cause we got a choice.

It's not fucking childish to be pissed about that. It ain't childish to fight back.

[ichoosefight]

We did have to deal with it Tiff, do you not remember? 'Cause I remember. I remember being angry, and scared, and sad, and confused.

And I remember the juvenile crap I did trying to deal with it, and it's not fighting back. It doesn't accomplish anything. Your plan doesn't become good if it sticks it to the man. It becomes good when you think farther ahead than step two.

I died fighting a stupid fight, trying to stop a stupid war I started because I was too childish to think about what I was actually doing and what it would actually accomplish. And you know? I think that gives me a little bit of authority when it comes to deciding what's childish and what's not.

[tucky]

We did before, but we don't now. And dealing with it before don't make it right for us to shit all over the people who're still fucking stuck.

[She grits her teeth and jumps up from the couch, pacing.]

Christ, Steph, I'm not saying it was a good plan. But fighting and being pissed here ain't the same as throwing a tantrum 'cause your mama grounded you.

[ichoosefight]

I have a right to be angry, too! Just because I have the option of packing up and leaving doesn't mean that nothing that happens here affects me, or that there aren't people just as stuck who now have to deal with their things being destroyed who didn't ask for it to happen.

I don't care how serious your circumstances are. I don't care if someone has a frickin gun to your head, you're still responsible for your own behavior.

[tucky]

I know! I know! I'm not excusing shit, Steph; you don't fucking get it. I ain't saying they're not responsible. I'm saying it's. Not. Childish.

[ichoosefight]

Mature adults don't blow shit up for no reason.

[tucky]

Mature adults don't say stuff happens for no reason just 'cause it's a reason they don't get!

[ichoosefight]

Mature adults don't try desperately to validate bad reasoning.

[tucky]

Jesus Christ! Are you fucking stupid or do you got cotton in your ears?! I hated that they did that shit! They blew up the kitchens; they blew up the infirmary! People I care about got hurt! And I helped stop fires and heal hurt people and clean up after - where were you?

[That isn't really a fair question - she knows it's very possible that Steph had been helping out, and their paths had just never crossed.]

[ichoosefight]

Unconscious, in the infirmary. I only woke up, like, yesterday. So be mad! Don't waste your time making excuses for a couple of idiots who don't have any to make for themselves!

fff WHOOPS that was my OOC mistake; we'll say Tiffany forgot thanks to hot-headedness

[tucky]

You're not listening to a fucking word I'm saying.

Why are you even here? You don't wanna listen to people. You don't wanna help anybody. You just wanna mock and play around.

aye aye Cap'n

[ichoosefight]

I'm listening, you're just not talking sense. Don't tell me I don't want to help just because I'm not naive enough to think I can do it by wishing really hard.

[tucky]

I got real plans. Unlike the rest of y'all, who just wanna give up 'cause nothing's worth trying.

I ain't making excuses for shit. How many times do I gotta say that I think it was wrong and terrible and cruel before it gets through your thick fucking skull, Steph? Huh? How many times?

[ichoosefight]

It. Was. Childish. Thoughtless. Immature. Juvenile. Infantile. Meaningless.

[tucky]

You're one of the worst kinds of wardens there is. You're the stuck-up kind.

[ichoosefight]

You're the self righteous, babying kind! You're the fucking helicopter mom nobody asked for. I'm sure if you ask real nice the principal will let your slacker babies pass without having to learn mean old fractions. They're just so hard and we don't want the kids to feel stupid, now do we?

[tucky]

Yeah, 'cause everyone's gotta learn what you want 'em to, right Steph? You know best. No thinking for yourself allowed on the Barge, everybody's gotta do what Steph wants.

[ichoosefight]

Oh yeah, that's me! I wrote the curriculum. I actually brought everyone here, because I have power over life and death in the universe!

Get over yourself, Tiffany. You're as trapped and powerless as any inmate. You're not special. People aren't withering away without your understanding and approval. No one gives a crap what you think about them. And the Admiral doesn't give a crap about your plans and ideas! You think you can paint the world how you want it to be, but you're just chalk on a sidewalk. A year from now nobody will care that you ever existed.

cw: extra-graphic language

[tucky]

I don't give a fuck what the Admiral thinks; he can go choke on a dick.

[Her hands ball into fists.]

You don't get anything. I never believed that graduating was brainwashing, but people like you make me think maybe I was wrong about that. This place is fucking awful, and it makes people worse, and you don't even care. You're the fucking child, Steph. Maybe all wardens are shits 'cause we're complicit, but you're extra complicit 'cause you pretend the inmates are the biggest problem. The Admiral brings a bunch of violent dicks up here and tells 'em they can't leave, and sets it up so they feel like they ain't even thought of as people no more, and everybody acts so surprised and offended when those violent dicks get violent? What the fuck do you expect?!

[ichoosefight]

You're not complicit, you're just stupid. You think you can go to war against the Admiral with nothing but wishful thinking. That's why Sylvanas killed you. Everyone knew she was going to do it, the entire goddamned state of Alabama knew she was going to do it, but you thought you could wish your way to a happy ending. Reality check: actions have consequences. You can't handle the innate childishness of a prison riot, you sure as hell can't handle the truth of this place: some people need to be locked up.

[tucky]

Wishful thinking. I got real plans. I just haven't told 'em to you, 'cause I know you ain't interested in making things better.

Nobody needs to be locked up like it's done here. Nobody.

[ichoosefight]

Tough fucking shit. It sure as hell beats the alternative.