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[tucky]

No. Me neither; he owes everybody. But... you know there's inmates that hate asking the wardens for favors? I know it ain't the same, and I ain't an inmate, but it feels kinda like that. I don't want him feeling like everything is okay just 'cause he gives me stuff sometimes.

[ichoosefight]

I get you. I guess I just never thought about what he thinks. I mean, we're kinda endorsing the system by staying here, aren't we?

[tucky]

I guess. Kind of. I don't think all of us are totally, but maybe we are in the ways that matter to people.

[ichoosefight]

I'm not the first person to have said so, let's put it that way.

[tucky]

No, you're not. I hear it a lot. I don't blame any of 'em for it.

I talk to a lot of inmates that don't like wardens much.

[ichoosefight]

You talk to a lot of people, period. I don't know a lot of inmates who would say they like wardens.

[tucky]

You mean wardens in general?

[ichoosefight]

Yeah. Funny how, once they have a face to put to the concept, they tend to be more forgiving.

[tucky]

Nah, not always. And sometimes having a face makes it even harder, I bet.

[ichoosefight]

I guess it depends on the person.

[tucky]

You got people like me, too, 'cause I loved all the wardens when I was an inmate.

[ichoosefight]

I was too absorbed in my own crap to think much about wardens and inmates.

[tucky]

It weren't a philosophical thing. As long as they were good to me, I didn't care about anything else.

[ichoosefight]

Yeah, I was kinda like that. But I think there are probably a lot of people like that. I mean, when you come here as an inmate you've just died. That's gotta be traumatic more often than not.

[tucky]

I still ain't buying that for everybody.

But it was, for me. Being told that. There's people that should've been way more sensitive about it than they were.

[ichoosefight]

Would you have believed them if they were?

[tucky]

Nope. Like I said, I don't believe them now. I believe some inmates are dead, but I don't believe it's a sure thing.

[ichoosefight]

Well, that's the difference. I never had any doubt that I was dead.

[tucky]

I believe you about that. If you remember it, I ain't calling you a liar.

I got a real problem with telling inmates who don't remember it that they're definitely dead, though.

[ichoosefight]

How would we know, do you think? I died slowly. That can't be the case very often.

[tucky]

We won't know for everybody. I think assuming we do is fucking stupid.

[ichoosefight]

I don't even know when I heard that it was the rule. It has to have come from somewhere.

[tucky]

If I hear it came from a good place maybe I'll change my mind, but I think it's probably just 'cause a bunch of people noticed a lot of inmates are dead, and figured it meant all of 'em are.

[ichoosefight]

[ whaa ]

Wow, you... really don't have a lot of faith in people here, do you.

[tucky]

What? Yeah, I do.