ichoosefight | 72,09 - Reparations

Me and B? Don't mix.

Besides. I don't do girls... [Not that the possibility of being a little bi bothered her in and of itself - but her sexuality has been the only constant in her life for a long time... or at least she had thought so.]

Oh, so it's just because it was Buffy? [ There are a lot of reasons she could be concerned okay ]

I wouldn't worry about it too much. Crazy stuff happens during floods.

Something like that... [She hadn't exactly asked permission, either, but she can't bring herself to discuss that without prompting.]

...She's not even going to bring up the fact that Stephanie here has started to look pretty dang cute, too... not that she felt a particular urge to jump her bones, or anything, but... things she wouldn't have put conscious thought into before, or suddenly standing out.]

Uuunless that's not the only thing bothering you?

Well, B didn't exactly... kiss back.

...I thought you didn't want her to?

[Silence for a looong moment, before she just... glances away. She doesn't know...] B's back to hating my guts again anyhow.

[ There is a rather long silence that is less gears working and more nooo... yes? no. yes? yes. ]

Do you have a crush on Buffy?

No! [A little forceful there, maybe, but... she doesn't know what she has.]

It's just... My whole life everything's been out of control; feeling like the whole universe is trying to shove me down. [Her mother, her peers - her dang principal saying some people were just asking for it... And that was before she even left Boston.] Do you know what that's like? Like nothing's yours anymore, and everything you touch is gonna burst into flames?

And then... Suddenly everything made sense I felt like I was in control; like I was working toward something worth it, you know? And one of those things I wanted was Buffy... and she still could barely stand to look at me.

...Doesn't matter. It's over. [But she can't stop remembering how it felt - and maybe she does have a little crush on Buffy... some little bit of feelings, beneath the pain and suffering they'd put themselves through. But if her peaceful side didn't have a chance - had gotten that riled up just being near her - what shot in hell did Faith have of even finding out?]

Except that obviously it isn't. If it's that important to you, even just her not hating you, you should talk to her about it. You're obviously not happy with the way things are.

[She shrugs.] Life sucks; get over it. Crossed B's good side off my list of goals last time we split.

If you were 'over it' you wouldn't be this upset about it.

Life sucks; get over it. Tried playing nice; got my heart diced up.

You're not going to do anything about this, are you.

Not my thing.

I am totally telling Buffy.

[That kicks her attention up.] Don't.

Then you tell her.

I tried! She..........

Then I'll tell her for you.

She asked if that's why I was always ruining her life. [Not exactly those words - and it had been a flood -but.... she didn't see a better reaction coming now. Maybe BUffy wouldn't say it, but that's what she would be thinking - trying to explain every bad mood Faith ever had through her crush....

That. Doesn't sound like it was a very good talk.

That was about the time I threw her ass up against the wall. [And then kissed her. And stormed out.]

And it just gets worse.

I told you, BG; we don't mix. Just gotta make do with being the barge slut or something... [Make out with whoever will get the taste of Buffy from her lips.]

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