38 - Video - Talking to myself

[ichoosefight]

[ Steph appears just the slightest bit crazed. Or maybe it's the combination of frustrated and mental exhaustion that has her eyebrows knit together and her jaw stubbornly set. Who knows. She pacing even as she rants. ]

I've had enough of this flood. Can't a girl and her thoughts have some privacy?

Of course not Steph, what are you thinking? It's announce-your-feelings-to-the-world day.

As cool as it is that I can give this rant in surround sound, I've actually had enough of my own thoughts.

Which is weird, because I'm thinking them, so it's like being sick of my own voice. You'd think the simple solution would be to just not talk.

Only nothing about my life is ever simple. This is like, Rule Number One of Steph World. If a situation seems simple, it's probably because you're doing it wrong.

Or because someone you're interested in is trying to a) kill you, b) hurt you, or c) make out with someone else. Not that that has anything to do with anything.

I JUST WANT TO THINK ABOUT PUPPIES!

In a purely professional sense, or just for enjoyment? Way to sound like a creeper Steph.

For the love of God, someone... break my brain or something. Before it breaks me.

[ooc | Bold purple is in her voice, but seemingly coming out of nowhere. Those who've spoken to her already are no doubt familiar with the phenomenon. ]

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mr 'I can see your thoughtcrime' is very intrigued by this.

[equalsfive.livejournal.com]

It's a very unsubtle way, admittedly, of letting you know he knows what you're thinking, comrade.

If it were floating words, that would be literal 8|

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Who knows what I'm thinking?

[equalsfive.livejournal.com]

[O'Brien snickers.]

Well done, subconscious.

It was either him, or Big Brother, comrade.

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Don't laugh at me! [ She whines. ]

[equalsfive.livejournal.com]

Comrade, he does just like to screw with your head to emphasise control.

It's simply a little unfortunate we now know what you're thinking, whilst I'm left wanting to fix bikes.

I know where I'd rather be, comrade.

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

I'll trade you. Bring on the bike fixation, I can take it.

[equalsfive.livejournal.com]

Nobody's mind is sacred, unfortunately, comrade. At least I wouldn't be deeply shocked at what you've got.

I will keep my bikes, though. ...of all kinds.

[young-idealist.livejournal.com]

It doesn't seem that staying in would help you much. Have you tried sleeping?

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

A girl can only sleep so much.

[young-idealist.livejournal.com]

...

Have you tried reading?

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Books in surround sound.

he's trying to pretend he doesn't hear the thoughts

[young-idealist.livejournal.com]

I feel for you.

she's resisting the urge to argue with herself :\

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Like I didn't have brain-to-mouth filter problems already.

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[givemeafight.livejournal.com]

[Your inmate looks like he fell down a flight of stairs.]

And I thought mine was bad.

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

What the hell happened to you?

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[givemeafight.livejournal.com]

Apparently whatever's happening to you makes me bruise and bleed just when someone touches me. And guess who didn't figure that out until after working in the gym for a few hours or so?

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

How do you not notice that?

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[givemeafight.livejournal.com]

Is there any way to turn that thing off?

[Nooooot answering the how did he not notice it question. Your inmate is a big pile of stupid, Steph.]

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Nnnnope.

[darknessb4me]

... [How does. He say this in good taste.]

Is that a serious request?

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

Not. Literally.

[darknessb4me]

[Shrug. Hey, whatever floats your boat.]

I've considered killing myself to get out of floods before. It's not that impractical here.

[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

That sounds a little drastic.

[darknessb4me]

Mm. I'm trying not to.

[Brief double-take.]

Wait, which of those wasn't I supposed to hear?

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[ichoosefight.livejournal.com]

The part that doesn't come out of my mouth.