[She holds up a finger to excuse herself off screen, where she can blow her nose. Coming back, she sniffles but seems to have regained control.]

I do, eventually. But we just thought it'd be easier to separate. I don't know, just in case or whatever, I guess. He told me not to wait around...that's why his cabin looks like our garage; he "moved out". Today, I was trying to be cute when I told him he has to come back inside the house, when he's home, but it just brought back the whole 'go find some awesome superhero boyfriend' and 'don't wait for me'. It's not that I'm waiting, I'm not, like, refusing to talk to other guys, but I miss Jesse. So much. I planned on being with him...now I have to consider that that plan might not happen now, and it just...sucks. Or what if he finds someone else on the Barge?

[She shakes her head.] I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...